Ya know what, Fuck you I can do it!

I am sick of the bullshit! I work my ass off, pay my bills, love my family. I show up, do my job, come home. I take care of my house, my kids, and make sure everyone has enough. I am fucking superwoman. I always look for the best in people and believe that others are genuinly righteous.

Not anymore! I believe there are some people that are just created evil and heartless. I believe that there are some people that take joy in bringing others down or hoping against hope that they fail.

To all of these people, I have this to say, "FUCK OFF". Seriously. You were the ones who told me that Eric and I would never last. WRONG. As we celebrated 9 years together, we laugh at your predicitons. You were the ones who said I would never graduate from college. Hmm, I guess I forgot to invite you to my party when I got my MASTER'S DEGREE.....

You were the ones who said I would be a lousy mom. Well, I have two of the most wonderful, well adjusted kids on the planet, and guess what. EVERYONE tells me I am a GREAT MOM! You were the ones who told me that I was too lazy to do anything about my weight. F-U I am down 80+Pounds!

Now, you have decided I will be unable to balance my work, home, and school life when I do my clinicals. You have no faith in my technical abilities, my program curriculum, or my balancing skills. Guess what: When I pass everything with flying colors and go on to make a difference in people's lives, it will be you who will miss having me to take care of your shit. You won't be able to hide behind me anymore.

I WILL SUCCEED, this is my destiny. I will do this without your blessing, your faith, or your understanding. I have my husband, my kids, my family, and my friends on my side. I don't need your negativity! You know who you are.

Reasons I need to move back home to Chicago

I am lonely out here. My only friends now live in my computer. No one gets to see my children grow up, me get skinny, or go out to the movies with me. I am bored out of my mind and am driving the whole family nuts. I am sick of school, sick of work, sick of wasting away my precious life doing nothing.

I miss Chicago.......sob, sob!